So the day is finally here. I have been eating healthy and clean for a while now, and working out as much as I can for a busy mama. But, it is time to take stock, evaluate what I am doing and figure out how to do it better. If I blog or journal, or just plain ole write it down, I feel better. So here is my truth. Let's back up a bit and give you some back story on my journey.
I had a lovely childhood full of ballet classes, play dates and the gorgeousness of the Hudson Valley. Although I did not grow up conventionally beautiful by any means I learned that personality goes a long way. I had fun. I was little, petite and had a healthy love of running around, climbing trees, soccer, and playing pretend with my neighborhood friends until dinner time. What kids should be doing. Staying active.
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| 13 years old during the 80s. Hey this was cool!!! |
1989-1992
High school.I went from kinda awkward curly, kinky hair to a pretty cool 90s do. I wore it big and proud. I loved tight clothing, wanted to dress like a rock star and continued my dance journey through ballet, jazz, tap, and even pointe. I loved being athletic and healthy and admittedly did not eat a lot. I think my senior year of high school I took a class during my lunch time and had a yogurt or apple instead. Thin was in. And I was petite. 100 lbs soaking wet. With breasts. OY.
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| Before digital cameras, I had to scan this in. Zoe circa 88/89 school year. 14 years old. |
1992-1996 The College Years
I loved college. Lots of fun, great classes and staying active with dance classes, acting classes, walking everywhere and just being young I guess (oh and going dancing every weekend). I weighed myself everyday. Everyday. I kept a chart over the scale in my bedroom. If I hit 110, I wouldn't eat until I was 107. Not sure why that was the magic number but it was. 5'4 " and 107 . Not too shabby. I looked great in all of my costumes. Wish I had photos of some of them.
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| Technically before college, but I dont have any full shots of my body so 17 going on 18 will have to do it. Probably 105 in this photo. |
After school and a brief internship, I moved to Hoboken NJ to pursure my love of theatre, acting, singing , dancing etc. I had a great apartment and the whole world at my feet. I was raring to go. Physically, I was in shape and kept in shape by walking everywhere and eventually joining the local NYSC. Then, I met Duncan. We became friends first. Then fooled around (sorry Mama) and then engaged. I was madly in love, and definitely OFF the market. And we ate a lot of crap. And didnt cook. So I gained a bit of weight. Probably about 5 lbs a year of our lovely bliss. Until we were married. So that puts me at about 120/125. Still in shape, a few more curves. No biggie.
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| Cute. Our 20s were fun. and |
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| A fuller face, but we were healthy and having fun!!! I was 30 in 2004. And though happily married and having fun with my career, friends, and social life I was starting to pack on the pounds. We ate out almost every meal. Pasta, pizza. You name it. At 130ish I joined Weight Watchers to take 10 pounds off. It worked. But from that point on, I yoyo'd. Up 10. Down 10. Up 15. Down 15. You get the picture. Until I hit rock bottom. 150. I could not believe it . 150 and really really sad about it. I dont have many photos from that time period. Here is one, I think it may be from 2008. Or 2007. Definitely towards my heaviest. Which is yet to come ;(  Ready for it?? Next post...part 2. Coming tomorrow...:) |
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