I weep and weep for the innocence that was lost yesterday in Newtown. I cannot stop reading about it, watching the news and dwelling on the young victims. I put Ana in every situation and I weep. I spent several hours crying yesterday in pain just thinking how senseless it all was.
I am not going to make this post about gun control, though I am definitely for stricter laws and more psychological testing that should be updated regularly for owners of guns.
This is about pain and healing. How to heal through all of this pain. I do not live far from this area where the shooting massacre occured. I moved back to the Hudson Valley to give Ana a safe place to grow up. For peace, solitude, safety and the beauty of mother nature. I feel like a little piece of me was lost yesterday as I know feel that no place is safe and that the peace has been broken.
I know that I cannot put Ana in a bubble, but I CAN teach her how to react to a sudden, violent situation, how to avoid strangers, what to do when that little voice in your head says DANGER, and leave or get out! Follow it.
I weep for all of those parents, and their pain. I wish I could hug them all and tell them that there will be peace eventually. But i cannot. All I can do is hug Ana , kiss her tiny , sweet smelling head and protect her the best way I can. Through knowledge, and love. And hope that that is enough.
I send the best of eveything out there today...we need good thoughts, and love circulating around the universe.
Hug your child. Hug your neighbor. Show patience to those who make you impatient. Show love to those who might anger you. Appreciate your family and friends.
And lets remember the reason we are here. To love. To live. To explore the world and to love it.